I look at the scar that stretches across my abdomen. It is a reminder of years of pain, loss and shame. Sometimes I remember so vividly, the physical & emotional pain that accompany that scar. This wound will never heal, because it has changed me permanently.
Contrarily, the scar also represents my courage and faith. It reminds me that I am indeed a warrior and no one has ever called a warrior a victim. Like all warriors, I posses literal and figurative battle wounds. Only you can decide who you want to be when tested, victim or warrior.
I named this blog "Lisa Loves Fun", which is playful, a sharp contrast to this post. But I embrace fun and live it everyday, why? Because I know the alternative. I have faced mortality, more times than I care to remember, and yes I wear the scars to prove it. I have learned from this that I will never surrender my happiness to or for anyone ever again. Life is just too precious.
I embrace the good and bad in life. When you don't embrace the bad it can cause you to overlook the simple sweetness of each moment. Having a constant reminder of your battles can absolutely be productive. It has lead me to this wonderful place, a new city, new job,and new adventures, I wouldn't go back for anything.
I wish this peace for all of you and want to know where your scars have led you.
Tell me how your "battle wounds" have shaped your present or where you believe it will lead you in the future.
If it's a surface wound we generally allow it to heal with time and patience. However, for those "wounds" that cut deep we seek treatment to ensure, more or less, a full recovery. My "wounds" required treatment and a little rehabilitation. I'm now better than I ever was, almost bionic :). I've substituted the bad in my life for all the things that make me happy, and keep me at peace. I looked to God on those days I thought I'd never recover, and still look to Him now that I've passed the worse. When you make it out of a battle alive, you develop a new found respect for this thing called life. Congrats to you, Lisa Loves Fun, for moving on and for appreciating the person you've become. When you've endured the worse, life is usually rosier on the other side. That's what my "battle" taught me.
ReplyDeletethanks for this post. :) my "battle wounds" have served/continue to serve as reminders that i can make it through anything- i am strong, brave and resilient. they remind me that EVERY storm passes- that in the midst of our hardest times- we can be confident that we will make it to the other side. it makes dancing in the rain that much sweeter. :)
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